It’s been 11 years since I celebrated my 1st Mother’s Day. I remember worrying about having a baby and how I would be as a Mom. And, then I was pregnant with my 2nd baby and remember worrying about how I could possibly have enough room in my heart to love another baby as much as my 1st one!
And, then, your heart just keeps on expanding with each baby and it sure is a beautiful thing.
This year is my 1st Mother’s Day divorced and only having my babies 50% of the time. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but I’ve learned that what matters is quality vs. quantity. I still get sad each and every time I kiss my girls goodbye and leave them with their Dad. My eyes always fill up with tears when I drive away and I realize how much has changed over the last year. I take a moment to be sad and then remind myself that I will keep working harder to be a better parent and focus on the quality of time that we do spend together. It pushes me to be a better Mom. My love for my daughters is a feeling that cannot ever be described and every day being their Mother is something I am so grateful for.
This was not my weekend to have the girls, but I took them out to brunch today and we spent a great morning together. I also took them to brunch yesterday with my Mom and Sister to celebrate Mother’s Day. I remind myself how precious our time is together, so I truly try my best to be present and have special time and talks together any chance we get. Spending less time together forces me to be more present. My best friend compared it to being a full time working Mom. She said she really puts her emphasis on quality vs quantity when she gets her kids after work or on the weekends. She said I should really try to focus on that concept too, and it certainly has helped me.
I don’t know how I would survive the journey of motherhood without my own Mom! She is simply the best Mom and the best Mimi to my daughters. It has been such a pleasure to watch her be a Mimi the last 11 years.